Combat to Classroom
Friday, August 21, 2015
The struggles of a father trying to see his daughter.
Thursday, May 28, 2015
The Last Day
So Tuesday my baseline was way off. Memorial Day is a very rough day because it's meant to be reflective NOT HAPPY. I drank that evening so obviously Tuesday morning I was not at 100%. I'm thankful that we did not have to perform that day as I was not ready. I did feel good as the class went on especially after our exercises.
Today was the last day of class:( I thoroughly enjoyed this class and learned a few things.
1. Warming up for everything that I do is important.
2. Stage fright is non-existent when well prepared.
3. Yoga is great for my back and mobility.
4. I really can act!
5. Shannon Ivey is the passionate and awesome and genuinely cares for us Vets as she does all people.
I loved this class and wished it was longer.
We performed today and I was able to pull the scene with Madi. While practicing, I kept jacking up my lines, but I got it!!! It was awesome.
Now I'm in Austin Airport awaiting my flight to Atlanta to head to mediation. After approximately 2 years, I'm finally going to establish my rights as a father to to my eldest. I have not seen my daughter in 3 years!!! I pray that I may see her tomorrow after mediation is done. I'll keep you guys posted! Wish me luck!
Monday, May 25, 2015
Memorial Day...
Joseph Fenty
David Timmons
Terry Lynch
Brian Moquin
Brian Bradbury
Patrick Lybert
Jared Monti
Wakkuna Jackson
Christophe Marquis
Benjamin D. Keating
Justin O'Donohue
Nicholas Bernier
Bryan A. Devlin
Sean Dadaian
Greg Gorski
My mind is pretty cloudy right now as I just finished balling my eyes out. Memorial Day...it's one of the hardest fucking days I live through year after year. My oldest son thought I was laughing and then realized I was crying. He kind of helped me out of it through his innocence.
"What's wrong Daddy?"
"A lot of Daddy's friends died."
I can't even think of everybody right now...I guess I'll edit it as I remember. The top ones are KIA. The second half died in vehicle accident like Devlin who was my best friend and roommate from basic until we went our separate ways after our first tour in Afghanistan together. He knew my family and we spent so much time together. He died doing the only thing he to cope with his life...drinking and riding fast.
Patrick Lybert |
Justin O'Donohue |
Christophe Marquis |
David Timmons |
Sean p. Dadaian |
MOH Jared C. Monti |
Greg Gorski |
Wakkuna Jackson |
Col. Joseph Fenty |
Terry Lynch |
Timothy D. Sayne |
There's so much to write but I need to call a friend right now to make sure he's ok on this day. I just called and no answer. I hope he didn't change his number because it went to an automated voicemail instead of his actual voice. He's been roughing it since he got out the Army and I worry about him. I may not be a Medic anymore but I still care deeply for all my guys and will forever be their "Doc."
Just talked to my buddy I was worried about. He's good. He just woke up from his security job and he is doing well.
Sugar
I did promise myself that I would be in the best shape of my life at age 30 (which I turned earlier this year). I have to eat to perform, I know I do. So why can't I just do it? I know the history behind sugar and major health issues began occurring in association with the demand for sugar. I guess it really is an addiction as Shannon my professor said. When I began Whole 30 a few months ago, after I went through the "detox" phase I felt great but I just don't see myself eating like a a carnivorous rabbit for the rest of my life.
This was me when I was still active duty in Nov 2012 I think. 184 lbs. |
This is me now. About 175 lbs. |
Thursday, May 21, 2015
Gotta dig deep...
Ok had to come back and add this in...My dog must thinking I'm loosing my mind. I'm practicing the script, waving my hands while yelling and cursing, and she's looking at me like wtf?! She just got up and left her chair in my office. I tried to tell her it was ok and that Daddy was just acting. I guess Daisy thinks I suck that bad:)
Wednesday, May 20, 2015
Pain
Tuesday, May 19, 2015
Real
Finally, while practicing my Empire monolog, I had a real moment. I actually felt my character and it was pretty cool. I felt him trying to explain about money through me to the audience. I physically got hot as if I was trying to explain something to someone who just didn't get it. I practiced with my wife several times and then headed to my neighbor's. I messed up the first time for him but nailed it the second time. I don't think he was expecting the profanity because he asked me about it. I explained to him that it's from the movie and he was like, "Oh ok, the profanity makes it more real." I pray tomorrow it feels real again and I have an outstanding performance.
While working on our monologs today I tried to act like I had been shot in the head and that didn't work. So then I was asked to act like I got hit in the chest by a bullet and it must have been so terrible because my professor nixed it completely (lol) and said, "Just act like you're looking at your dead body."